Kristin Bennett

I was thinking about writing about masturbation but it took seeing a tweet from Kiyosaki about the number one market (still) being porn online to actually go ahead and do it.

I was not raised christian, or with any religion in particular but I believe it was infused in some way because after reading an article this morning about female masturbation and how taboo it is to put it lightly.

A friend of mine has ‘outed’ some of her sexual escapades with her book “Single Mom Seeking
” which is a great book that I can relate to in a lot of ways reflecting back on my single mom days of dating.

Back to the point though, I was thinking about writing about masturbating because I don’t think enough people do! I once signed up to be a consultant for a well known MLM that sells adult toys and props such as swings and lingerie but when it came down to it, aside from random leads who I didn’t know, I was too shy to ask any of my friends to host a party so I could sell some of the toys.

Fortunately at about the same time I signed up for that company I also signed up for Arbonne which is much more in line with what I promote and believe in which is well summed up by their “Pure, Safe, and Beneficial” tagline. I am very much in the process of detoxing my life and this has been a big part of it. All my personal care products such as shampoo, lotion, soap, sunscreen and even premixed shakes and fizzy tabs are all Arbonne, and I love to use and share them.

I’m not writing about that though, back to masturbation. I don’t know if it is the same for everyone but I know that for me I have at times been a bit jealous about the ease that men seem to be able to reach orgasm. It took me years of being sexually active to achieve this and while the first one I had was orally induced by my partner at the time…it never happened again that way. Sure all that my various partners since then tried felt very nice, but it didn’t quite do it for me.

So when I discovered vibrators, which happened in my teens but didn’t find the ones that for me could ‘do the job’ until I was in my twenties. I do not remember the exact age I was, but I remember it was a really good thing, and that I liked it very much.

Dildos never really did it for me, I found that they did help when being used in conjunction with a vibrator but alone they didn’t do much for me, not as much as the real thing though. If anything they made me laugh, because yes, I think penises look funny, and fake ones even funnier.

So, I was kind of disheartened in the ‘toy party’ industry for this reason too, I had such conflict!! See, my favorite toy is one that is really a “All-Body Massager
“that I bought off of Amazon at some point. It’s actually kind of a funny story about how I found it too.

Prior to finding my “PIB” (plug-in boyfriend) I was using lowly battery operated ones…and they tended to die at the worst possible moment that I found extremely frustrating. So one day, when I was with someone years ago, I noticed that when he used his clippers it made SUCH a loud noise! Later I had a thought that went something like this, “If it is that loud, then it must have a really powerful vibration too…” and that led to be ‘trying’ it, and with my hand I felt the power…and beyond that, I actually wrapped it up (yes, the clippers at this point) and it was great!! So I searched online and when I saw that the same brand had a vibrator and it wasn’t just for trimming hair, I bought it immediately and have owned one (at times two) since then.

So on that note…I’m going to sign off and walk out in this lovely sunny day we’re having. I believe everyone deserves to have a regular orgasm whether they have a partner or not and whether they want their partner involved or not if they do have one, it is up to us each individually to meet our needs in this area!!

This is my second week back into getting my groceries delivered again…way back when I lived on Alki I used to love them a LOT, then I met this guy who I married who loved grocery shopping. But with his work hours increasing and grocery hours decreasing…I know where to turn!!

I love it and I’m glad they are still around and even better!!!

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What an exciting month January was…it started with the Symposium I participated in on the 6th and then about a week later I went to Olympia where I spoke with my district Senator as well as one of the two Legislators. Unfortunately the other thing that started on this “MS Activist” day was that my MS seemed to become activated…it started with a falling asleep numbness/vibrating feeling. I remember thinking, oh boy, either my pants are too tight or this is a flare up, (I was really hoping my pants were too tight and circulation was making them feel asleep!). It was both of my legs at that point.

Soon it developed into my neck down.. or I should say my neck got all ‘feverish’ and I lost feeling/strength and coordination below that. It was not cool in other words!! By Friday I was in my old neurologist’s office and being shuffled for my 3 days of steroids to begin…they did nothing and by the end of the weekend it was worse. It took me until Wednesday to get ahold of my neuro again and so I called a different doctor who saw me the following Friday.

At this point this was all almost a month ago, and fortunately after having 2 extremely difficult weeks I did start to improve. I went through insane ups and downs, the MA program I planned on applying for had a 2/1 application due date and at that point I could BARELY type at all, meaning I had to literally watch my fingers as they typed because I couldn’t ‘feel’ which keys they ere on. I think at this point my fingers are about 70% better though thankfully. Prior to the last week in January, I spent days not even able to do that, and days typing with just my pointer finger on my left hand (I’m a righty but my left hand had more control) and when it came to writing with pen and paper I was using my left hand to ‘lead’ my right. One form I had to fill out to get my transcript sent to me me which pretty much consisted of my address, social, name, and date of graduation took about TWENTY minutes to write by hand and it looked like a child or very drunk person wrote it.

I did manage to get my application in on time though, well, on the extended time (last Thursday) so I’m VERY grateful for all the support the admissions staff gave me. Hopefully I’ll have some more news to share soon! I have lots of other stories to share from January but I have a beautiful little teething 10mo climbing up my leg so I gotta go…plus I have some pre-requisite homework to do in Personality Psychology…

Katherine has made the move and registered this team for our local Seattle Walk MS team this year (Thank you Katherine!!) and it is so exciting! MomsWithMS.com was launched on July 1, 2009 and by 6 months later, January 1, 2010, we had more than 250 members already!! Our members span across over 35 states, and 6 countries!

I’m not pregnant this year and am looking forward to doing the walk with BOTH of my lovely daughters this year.

I have upped my goal to $1,000.00 dollars this year as well, and hopefully can help coordinate the starting of many similar teams across the country too!! I will post information updates here and also on MomsWithMS.com

I am convinced that it is what I need to do. I am working on a book that will touch on a variety of my life experiences that I occasionally ramble about that consistently lead people to look me dead in the eye and tell me that I need to tell my story. I’ve been told this by “Intuitives” who read this in my Chakras, friends, strangers, and many many more. I have held back in part because the sheer amount of intense stories I have intimidate me.

Anyway, I have gotten started and already had to stop, at least for today because I got to a part of my life that I do not have clear memory of. I have lots of random ‘scenes’ that pop up but don’t clearly fit together in my head. It is an interesting challenge to make a story out of the past with this kind of memory. At this point I am going to be digging for some of the old journals, though I know these do not tell the whole story, this part of my life I had no privacy and my journals were being read by other people daily and so were written in a way that they would be reading what I interpreted as content that would get me out of the situation. It had nothing to do with what I was really thinking and feeling in other words but I am hoping that it will still trigger some kind of memory so I can tell the story.

If the journals don’t help then I plan to write all those little excerpts and maybe that is how I will write them, it will be a kind of random set of memories that can be read as I remember them and maybe writing them like that I will find some kind of structure, I figure if I don’t then it just means they are meant to be communicated like this though.

I will also soon be writing some other ebooks with my husband for our other new site “A Niche To Scratch” as we are working together to help people to do what they are driven to do, and monetize their niche in life through the internet in ways that make sense.

Back to the life stuff though, I am thinking I might have to scan parts of the journal to put into the book as well as pictures.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving, I sure did. I was home with my girls and my husband who did ALL of the cooking in a wonderful couldn’t be better way. We did a little video of what we are grateful for and everything. Loved it as it was the best Thanksgiving ever, no pressure, no drama, all love. We spent the rest of the weekend having fun visiting family and running errands, it ended too soon.

I was hoping it wouldn’t get to this point but it has, and my phone will be shut off tomorrow unless something comes through, wouldn’t be a huge deal except that I’m looking for jobs and that sort of thing, not to mention how active I am all the time with my blackberry etc.

I will absolutely be checking email and other sites @ least once every day or two still but responses might take longer.

Ironically my time will be focused on getting web design jobs probably, which I’ll pretty much be doing from starbucks.

It sucks because the way my husband has our phones set up, my phone, his phone, internet, and data plan to the phones are all linked, so that makes it expensive AND it makes it so if we can’t make the payment on time…all is lost at the same time too. Plus since we were already 30 days late, once it goes to 60 we have to make the FULL payment plus reactivate to get back in business.

I’m starting a 10 hour a week job watching another little 6mo which I’m looking forward to, that starts tuesday.

It’s crazy how hard it is to find a job these days what with the recession and all. My husband got rushed through 3 interviews for a position about a week and a half ago and then suddenly no call back at all, not a yay, not a nay. Meanwhile I’ve been applying for at least 3 jobs a week, I have to because I’m on unemployment, and nothing aside from this childcare gig has come through. It’s a trip considering I was making about 2.5 times the rate I’ll be making an hour and had benefits just about 7 months ago.

Anyway, surprisingly I’m not that upset, I’ve kind of accepted it and decided it’s time for me to write more, so I’ll be probably doing better writing too, the old fashioned way with that ‘word’ program and then bringing it to the cafe to upload. That is I will write as long as the daycare my daughter is at will let her keep coming. I might have to switch her to part time or fully pull her out of preschool because of this money stuff, I’m behind there too.

I think it would be great if we could just do everything based on a barter system, you know that whole you scratch my back I’ll scratch yours? There seems to be a lot of people who need ‘cheap’ websites, so I think I’ll pick up a couple of those low paying gigs just to build up my portfolio and then start going after the real design jobs…

In my dream world I’m finding a way to make this whole site into a non-profit so that I can help moms who are in a situation like mine. It’s the long term goal, if you want to chat about how to make that happen let me know, I’m a passionate designer wi/out a lot of non-profit experience aside from being a part of the board for a couple. I’m told to not bother even being an official 501(c)3 until I’m bringing in 6 figures but I have to get a lot more organized to make that happen. I’ll be working on that too though as that is where my passion is pulling me.

See everyone around, hopefully this won’t take long!!

What a busy month!! We have left Alki, and now I am considering closing down this blog as I have been writing on KristinBennett.com, AssociatedContent.com, DivineCaroline.com, Open.Salon.com as well as keeping up with all sorts of websites for mothers to spread word of MomsWithMS.com.