It was around this time that I knew that I could offer my first daughter something so much better than what we had if I left the situation that we were in to create a new life for us. Love that had been around for years and leading to her conception wasn’t enough, the relationship couldn’t handle the pressures of life and had turned abusive. I believed that staying would be just a sick thing to do, watching her mom get yelled at, the fighting, and the other things I’m not going to talk about that I knew she would not be around ever again if I just took that big step. To leave.
Probably painting this picture was part of what readied me to take action on what I knew, it was a part of becoming comfortable with us as one, enough, and fully capable of moving on. It was soon after painting this picture which is about 18×24 inches that I left her father and stayed with friends and family for 6mo before relocating to Seattle finally.
Now I would like to start a painting that depicts the joy we have now, she has a new father, a new sister, a home and is in school. I think maybe a version of what is seen in the picture above of us kissing on my wedding day would be a step…so many to choose from I think I better finish her photo album I have been working on for about 6 months now first.
That one I think is even better, seeing her laughing with her sister really shows how much our lives have changed in a good way.